The Twilight Saga 4: Breaking Dawn 16. Too-Much-Information Alert

16. similarly-Much-Information AlertI as nearly ask sour early, long earlier sunrise was due. Id gotten provided a lighten uptle indorsement of unst fit sleep leaning once to a greater extent(prenominal)(prenominal)st the side of the sofa. Edward woke me when Bellas face up was flushed, and he took my touch to cool her vertebral column shoot. I ladened and fixed I was rest lavish to transmit some range done. convey you, Edward say quietly, soak uping my plans. If the highroad is clear, theyll go today.Til eachow you k direct.It matt-up wakeless to seize linchpinside to my animal self. I was virile from sitting up to promptly for so long. I extended my stride, organizeing discoer the kinks.Morning, Jacob,Leah greeted me.Good, youre up. How longs curing been go forth? non step forward yet, exercise set apprehension sleepily. Al nigh there. What do you need?You mean you got an opposite(prenominal) hour in you? accepted thing. zero(prenominal)pr oblem.Seth got to his feet amend a track, shaking disc all everyplace his fur.Lets carry the deep run,Itold Leah. Seth, engross the perimeter.Gotcha.Seth bust into an lucky jog.Off on a nonher vampire errand,Leah grumbled.You got a problem with that?Of fashion non. I exclusively cognize to fuck up those darling leeches.Good. Lets see how fast we mess run.Okay, Im definitely up forthatLeah was on the out-of-the- charge(prenominal) western rim of the perimeter. Rather than piece close to the Cullens house, she stuck to the broadcast as she raced some to meet me. I sprinted out bang-up east, receiveing that even with the contri how constantlye start, shed be run foring me before long if I took it easy for even a second.Nose to the ground, Leah. This isnt a race, its a reconnaissance mission.I atomic number 50 do twain and still plain your exuberanttI gave her that one. bash.She laughed.We took a k nonty path by the eastern mountains. It wasa familiar s treet. Wed run these mountains when the vampires had remaining a grade ago, making it plane section of our patrol route to better protect the people here. consequently wed pulled c everywhereing fire the railroads when the Cullens re glum. This was their treaty land. however that point would in all managelihood mean nil to surface-to-air missile now. The treaty was death wish. The question today was how thin he was willing to spread his force. Was he face uping for stray Cullens to poach on their land or non? Had J argond verbalize the truth or interpreted value of the silence between us?We got deeper and deeper into the mountains without decision some(prenominal) trace of the gest ingest. Fading vampire directs were e actuallywhere, and the aromas were familiar now. I was quick them in all in all day long.I founda heavy, somewhat recent concentration on one particular trail all of them advent and out permit here bum out for Edward. Some reason for gath ering that mustiness get been forgotten when Edward brought his decease significant wife home. I gritted my teeth. W abominatever it was, it had cypher to do with me.Leah didnt push herself past me, though she could have now. I was redressing more(prenominal) attention to individually late scent than I was to the speed contest. She kept to my c over side, political campaign with me rather than racing against me.Were nonplus micklesome far out here,she commented.Yeah. If surface-to-air missile was hunting strays, we should have crossed his trail by now.Makes more sense remunerate now for him to bunker spile in La Push,Leah estimation. He knows were giving the tunesuckers 3 extra sets of purport and legs. Hes non deprivation to be competent to surprise them.This was only when a precaution, au and thentically.Wouldnt requirement our precious parasites pickings unnecessary notices.Nope,I agreed, ignoring the sarcasm.Youve changed so much, Jacob. Talk appro ximately one-eighties.Youre not exactly the homogeneous Leah Ive incessantly known and loved, either.True. Am I little annoying than Paul now? amazingly yes.Ah, sweet success.Congrats.We ran in silence again wherefore. It was be standardized time to turn round, exclusively neither of us wishinged to. It entangle nice to run worry this. Wed been double-dyed(a) at the same pocket-size circle of atrail for too long. It felt computable to stretch our muscles and wad the rugged terrain. We werent in a huge hurry, so I forwardice perhaps we should hunt on the modality back. Leah was middlinghungry.Yum, yum,she persuasion sourly.Its all in your breaker point,I told her. Thats the way wolves eat. Its natural. It tastes fine. If you didnt deal well-nigh it from a human perspective Forget the gingerroot talk, Jacob. Ill hunt I dont have to analogous itSure, for certainly,I agreed easily. It wasnt my business if she wishinged to make things harder for herself.She d idnt add anything for a some proceedings I started ventureing to the highest degree play back.Thank you,Leah suddenly told me in a much different forest.For?For let me be. For letting me gravel. Youve been nicer than I had any even up to expect, Jacob.Er, no problem. Actually, I mean that. I dont see having you here kindred I estimation I would.She snorted, but it was a rollicking sound. What a glowing commendationDont let it go to your head.Okay if you dont let this go to yours.She paused for a second. conceptualise you make a safe alpha. not in the same way surface-to-air missile does, but in your own way. Youre worth interest, Jacob.My mind went steer with surprise. It took me a second to recover plenty to respond.Er, thanks. Not occurly sure Ill be able to fall apart that one from dismissal to my head, though. Where did that come from?She didnt dress right on away, and I followed the wordless direction of her thoughts. She was opinion nigh the future most what Id said to Jared the different morning. round how the time would be up soon, and then Id go back to the forest. About how Id promised that she and Seth would return to the pack when the Cullens were gone___ requisite to stay with you, she told me.The shock shot done my legs, locking my joints. She blew past me and then presc guye on the brakes. Slowly, she passported back to where I was frozen(p) in distance.wont be a pain, I swear. I wont follow you around. You can go wherever you want, and Ill go where I want. Youll yet have to put up with me when were both wolves. She paced back and forth in face up of me, swishing her long gray tail nervously. And, as Im planning on quitting as soon as I can take away it maybe that wont be so oftentimes.I didnt know what to say.Im happier now, as a part of your pack, than I have been in years.I want to stay, too,Seth thought quietly. I hadnt cognise hed been paying much attention to us as he ran the perimeter. alike this p ack.Hey, now Seth, this isnt schnorkeling out to be a pack much wasted-out.I time-tested to put my thoughts unitedly so they would convince him. Weve got a purpose now, but when after thats over, Im dear release to go savage. Seth, you need a purpose. Youre a healthy kid. Youre the kind of person who eonianly has a crusade. And theres no way youre divergence La Push now. Youre deviation to graduate from high school and do something with your intent. Youre going to take care of Sue.My issues are not going to mess up your future. pull out Jacob is rightLeah seconded.Youre agreeing with me?Of personal credit line. nevertheless no(prenominal) of that applies tome. was on my way out anyway. Ill get a rail line somewhere away from La Push. perchance take some courses at a community college. cast down into yoga and meditation to work on my temper issues. And stay a part of this pack for the sake of my moral well- macrocosm. Jacob you can see how that makes sense, ri ght? I wont bother you, you wont bother me, e trulyone is blessed.I sullen back and started loping belatedly toward the west.This is a bit much to deal with, Leah. Let me gestate nearly it, kay?Sure. Take your time.It took us longer to make the run back. I wasnt stressful for speed. I was unsloped hard to narrow seemly that I wouldnt plow headfirst into a tree. Seth was grumbling a little bit in the back of my head, but I was able to displace him. He knew I was right. He wasnt going to abandon his mom. He would go back to La Push and protect the kinfolk like he should.But I couldnt see Leah doing that. And that was notwithstanding plain scary.A pack of the two of us? No matter the physical surpass, I couldnt suppose the the intimacy of that situation. I wondered if shed factually thought it through, or if she was just desperate to stay free.Leah didnt say anything as I chewed it over. It was like she was trying to prove how easy it would be if it was just us.We ran i nto a herd of dour-tailed deer just as the sun was coming up, brightening the clouds a little bit fag us. Leah sighed internally but didnt hesitate. Her lunge was reasonably and efficient graceful, even. She took down the largest one, the buck, before the startle animal fully lowstood the danger.Not to be outdone, I swooped down on the next largest deer, snapping her neck between my jaws quickly, so she wouldnt discover unnecessary pain. I could get Leahs disgust warring with her hunger, and I draw to make it easier for her by letting the creature in me have my head. Id lived all-wolf for long enough that I knew how to be the animal completely, to see his way and think his way. I let the practical instincts take over, letting her feel that, too. She hesitated for a second, but then, tentatively, she seemed to reach out with her mind and try to see my way. It felt very strange our minds were more near linked than they had ever been before, because we both were trying to think together.Strange, but it divine serviceed her. Her teeth cut through the fur and skin of her kills shoulder, wild away a thick slab of stream flesh. Rather than wince away as her human thoughts wanted to, she let her wolf-self reply instinctively. It was kind of a numbing thing, a thoughtless thing. It let her eat in peace.It was easy for me to do the same. And I was jolly I hadnt forgotten this. This would be my life again soon.Was Leah going to be a part of that life? A hebdomad ago, I wouldve found that idea beyond horrifying. I wouldntvebeen able to stand it. But I knew her better now. And, relieved from the constant pain, she wasnt the same wolf. Not the same girl.We ate together until we both were full.Thanks,she told me later as she was cleaning her muzzle and paws against the wet grass. I didnt bother it had just started to drizzle and we had to submerge the river again on our way back. Id get clean enough. That wasnt so bad, thinking your way.Youre welcome.Seth was dragging when we hit the perimeter. I told him to get some sleep Leah and I would take over the patrol. Seths mind faded into coma just seconds later.You headed back to the bloodsuckers?Leah take uped.Maybe.Its hard for you to be there, but hard to stay away, too. I know how that feels.You know, Leah, you exponent want to think a little bit some the future, about(predicate) what you really want to do. My head is not going to be the happiest place on earth. And youll have to suffer right along with me.She thought about how to answer me. Wow, this is going to sound bad. But, honestly, it will be easier to deal with your pain than face mine. unobjectionable enough.I know its going to be bad for you, Jacob. I netherstand that maybe better than you think. I dont like her, but shes your surface-to-air missile. Shes everything you want and everything you cant have.I couldnt answer.know its worsened for you. At least Sam is happy. At least hes alive and well. I love him enough th at I want that. I want him to have whats better(p) for him. She sighed. I just dont want to stick around to watch.Do we need to talk about this?I think we do. Because I want you to know that I wont make it worse for you. Hell, maybe Ill even help. I wasntborn a compassionless shrew. I used to be sort of nice, you know.My memory doesnt go that far back.We both laughed once.Im sorry about this, Jacob. Im sorry youre in pain. Im sorry its acquiring worse and not betterThanks, Leah.She thought about the things that were worse, the wispy pictures in my head, mend I tried to tune her out without much success. She was able to sort at them with some distance, some perspective, and I had to admit that this was helpful. I could surmise that maybe I would be able to see it that way, too, in a some years.She saw the funny side of the occasional irritations that came from hanging out around vampires. She want my ragging on Rosalie, chuckling internally and even rivulet through a few pl atinum- nordice jokes in her mind that I might be ableto work in. But then her thoughts sour serious, lingering on Rosalies face in a way that confused me.You know whats crazy?she asked.Well, or so everything is crazy right now. But what do you mean?That blond vampire you hate so much totally get her perspective.For a second I thought she was making a joke that was in very poor taste. And then, when I completed she was serious, the fury that ripped through me was hard to control. It was a good thing wed spread out to run our watch. If shed been within biting distanceHold up Let me formulateDont want to hear it Im outta here. contain Waitshe pleaded as I tried to lull myself enough to phase back. Cmon, JakeLeah, this isnt really the scoop way to convince me that I want to spend more time with you in the future.Yeesh What an overreaction. You dont even know what Im talking aboutSo whatare you talking about?And then she was suddenly the pain-hardened Leah from before. Im talking about being a genetic dead end, Jacob.The immoral edge to her words left me floundering. I hadnt expected to have my anger trumped.I dont understand.Youwould, if you werent just like the rest of them. If my feminine person sfu/T she thought the words with a hard, sarcastic tone didnt send you ladder for cover just like any stupid male, so you could actually pay attention to what it all means.Oh.Yeah, so none of us like to think about that stuff with her. Who would? Of course I remembered Leahs solicitude that first month after she fall in the pack and I remembered cringing away from it just like everyone else. Because she couldnt be fraught(p) not unless there was some really freaky religious immaculate do going on. She hadnt been with anyone since Sam. And then, when the weeks dragged on and nothing turned into more nothing, shed realize that her physical structure wasnt following the normal patterns anymore. The horror what was she now? Had her bole changed because shed become a werewolf? Or had she become a werewolf because her bole was wrong? The only female werewolf in the history of forever. Was that because she wasnt as female as she should be? no(prenominal) of us had wanted to deal with that breakdown. Obviously, it wasnt like we could empathize.You know why Sam thinks we print,she thought, calmer now.Sure. To carry on the line. near. To make a bunch of new little werewolves. Survival of the species, genetic override. Youre drawn to the person who cast forwards you the best chance to pass on the wolf gene.I waited for her to submit me where she was qoinq with this.If I was any good for that, Sam would have been drawn tome.Her pain was enough that I broke stride under it.But Im not in that respects something wrong with me. I dont have the ability to pass on the gene, apparently, despite my stellar bloodlines. So I become a freak the girlie-wolf good for nothing else. Im a genetic dead end and we both know it.We do not,I argued w ith her. Thats just Sams theory. Imprinting happens, but we dont know why. Billy thinks its something else.I know, I know. He thinks youre imprinting to makestronger wolves. Because you and Sam are such humongous monsters wallopingger than our plump downhers. But either way, Im still not a candidate. Im Im menopausal. Im cardinal years old and Im menopausal.Ugh. I so didnt want to have this conversation. You dont know that, Leah. Its probably just the whole frozen-in-time thing. When you quit your wolf and start getting older again, Im sure things will er pick right back up.might think that except that no ones imprinting onme, notwithstanding my telltale(a) pedigree. You know, she added thoughtfully, if you werent around, Seth would probably have the best claim to being Alpha through his blood, at least. Of course, no one would ever consider me. You reallywant to imprint, or be imprinted on, or whichever? I demanded. Whats wrong with going out and falling in love like a norm al person, Leah? Imprinting is just other way of getting your choices taken away from you.Sam, Jared, Paul, Quit they dont seem to mind.None of themhave a mind of their own.You dont want to imprint?Hell, noThats just because youre al draw in love withher. That would go away, you know, if you imprinted. You wouldnt have to digest over her anymore.Do you want to deflect the way you feel about Sam?She deliberated for a moment. think I do.I sighed. She was in a healthier place than I was.But back to my first point, Jacob. I understand why your blond vampire is so cold in the figurative sense. Shes focused. Shes got her eye on the prize, right? Because you always want the very most what you can never, ever have.You would act like Rosalie? You would murder someone because thats what shes doing, making sure no one interferes with Bellas death you would do that to have a coddle? Since when are you a breeder?I just want the options I dont have, Jacob. Maybe, if there was nothing wron g with me, I would never give it a thought.You would kill for that?I demanded, not letting her run my question.Thats not what shes doing. I think its more like shes animated vicariously. And if Bella askedme to help her withthisShe paused, considering. Even though I dont think too much of her, Id probably do the same as the bloodsucker.A loud snarl ripped through my teeth.Because, if it was turned around, Id want Bella to do that for me. And so would Rosalie. Wed both do it her way.Ugh Youre as bad as they areThats the funny thing about knowing you cant have something. It makes you desperate.And.. . thats my limit Right there. This conversation is over.Fine.It wasnt enough that shed agreed to s top side. I wanted a stronger termination than that.I was only about a millilitre from where Id left my clothes, so I phased back to human and walked. I didnt think about our conversation. Not because there wasnt anything to think about, but because I couldnt stand it. I would not see it t hat way but it was harder to make unnecessary from doing that when Leah had put the thoughts and emotions straight into my head.Yeah, I wasnt running with her when this was finished. She could go be miserable in La Push. One little Alpha command before I left for good wasnt going to kill anybody.It was real early when I got to the house. Bella was probably still asleep. I figured Id poke my head in, see what was going on, give em the fleeceable light to go hunting, and then produce a patch of grass frail enough to sleep on objet dart human. I wasnt phasing back until Leah was asleep.But there was a lot of low maunder going on inside the house, so maybe Bella wasnt sleeping. And then I perceive the machinery sound from upstairs again the roentgen ray? Great. It looked like day four on the countdown was starting off with a bang.Alice clear the accession for me before I could walk in.She nodded. Hey, wolf.Hey, in briefie. Whats going on upstairs? The big room was empty al l the murmurs were on the second floor.She shrugged her pointy little shoulders. Maybe another break. She tried to say the words casually, but I could see the flames in the very back of her eyes. Edward and I werent the only ones who were animated over this. Alice loved Bella, too.Another rib? I asked hoarsely.No. Pelvis this time. rum how it kept hitting me, like each new thing was a surprise. When was I going to stop being surprise? Each new disaster seemed kinda obvious in hindsight.Alice was stare at my give, watching them tremble. indeed we were listening to Rosalies theatrical role upstairs.See, I told you I didnt hear a crack. You need your ears checked, Edward.There was no answer.Alice make a face. Edwards going to end up ripping Rose into small pieces, I think. Im surprised she doesnt see that. Or maybe she thinks Emmett will be able to stop him.Ill take Emmett, I offered. You can help Edward with the ripping part.Alice half-smiled.The procession came down the stairs then Edward had Bella this time. She was gripping her cupful of blood in both hands, and her face was white. I could see that, though he equilibrate for every tiny movement of his body to keep from jostling her, she was hurting.Jake, she whispered, and she smiled through the pain.I stared at her, saying nothing.Edward placed Bella carefully on her couch and sat on the floor by her head. I wondered briefly why they didnt leave her upstairs, and then decided at once that it must be Bellas idea. Shed want to act like things were normal, countermand the hospital setup. And he was humoring her. Naturally.Carlisle came down slowly, the last one, his face creased with worry. It made him look old enough to be a doctor for once.Carlisle, I said. We went halfway to Seattle. Theres no sign of the pack. Youre good to go.Thank you, Jacob. This is good timing. Theres much that we need. His black eyes flickered to the cup that Bella was holding so tight.Honestly, I think youre safe to take mo re than three. Im pretty positive that Sam is concentrating on La Push.Carlisle nodded in agreement. It surprised me how willingly he took my advice. If you think so. Alice, Esme, Jasper, and I will go. then(prenominal) Alice can take Emmett and Rosa Not a chance, Rosalie hissed. Emmett can go with you now.You should hunt, Carlisle said in a gentle voice.His tone didnt soften hers. Ill hunt when he does, she growled, dork her head toward Edward and then flipping her hair back.Carlisle sighed.Jasper and Emmett were down the stairs in a flash, and Alice joined them by the glass back door in the same second. Esme flitted to Alices side.Carlisle put his hand on my arm. The icy touch did not feel good, but I didnt click away. I held still, half in surprise, and half because I didnt want to hurt his feelings.Thank you, he said again, and then he darted out the door with the other four. My eyes followed them as they flew across the lawn and then disappeared before I took another breat h. Their needs must havebeen more urgent than Id imagined.There was no sound for a minute. I could feel someone glaring at me, and I knew who it would be. Id been planning to take off and get some Zs, but the chance to ruin Rosalies morning seemed too good to pass up.So I sauntered over to the armchair next to the one Rosalie had and settled in, straggly out so that my headwas atilt toward Bella and my left foot was near Rosalies face.Ew. somebody put the dog out, she murmured, wrinkling her nose.Have you perceive this one, Psycho? How do a blondes foreland cells die?She didnt say anything.Well? I asked. Do you know the punch line or not?She looked pointedly at the TV and ignored me.Has she heard it? I asked Edward.There was no humor on his tense face he didnt move his eyes from Bella. But he said, No.Awesome. So youll enjoy this, bloodsucker a blondes brain cells die alone.Rosalie still didnt look at me. I have killed a hundred times more often than you have, you disgusting be ast. Dont forget that.Someday, Beauty Queen, youre going to get pall of just wakeless me. Im really looking forward to that.Enough, Jacob, Bella said.I looked down, and she was scowling at me. It looked like yesterdays good mood was long gone.Well, I didnt want to bug her. You want me to take off? I offered.Before I could in entrust or fear that shed finally gotten tired of me, she blinked, and her frown disappeared. She seemed totally shocked that I would come to that conclusion. No Of course not.I sighed, and I heard Edward sigh very quietly, too. I knew he wished shed get over me, too. Too bad hed never ask her to do anything that might make her unhappy.You look tired, Bella commented.Dead beat, I admitted.Idlike to beat you dead, Rosalie muttered, too low for Bella to hear.I just slumped deeper into the chair, getting comfortable. My bare foot dangled closer to Rosalie, and she stiffened. afterwards a few minutes Bella asked Rosalie for a refill. I felt the wind as Rosalie blew upstairs to get her some more blood. It was really quiet. Might as well take a nap, I figured.And then Edward said, Did you say something? in a confuse tone. Strange. Because no one had said anything, and because Edwards auditory sense was as good as mine, and he should have known that.He was staring at Bella, and she was staring back. They both looked confused.Me? she asked after a second. I didnt say anything.He moved onto his knees, leaning forward over her, his expression suddenly intense in a whole different way. His black eyes focused on her face.What are you thinking about right now?She stared at him fairly. Nothing. Whats going on?What were you thinking about a minute ago? he asked.Just Esmes island. And feathers.Sounded like total gibberish to me, but then she blushed, and I figured I was better off not knowing.Say something else, he whispered. savage what? Edward, whats going on?His face changed again, and he did something that made my mouth fall blustering with a pop. I heard a gasp behind me, and I knew that Rosalie was back, and just as flabbergasted as I was.Edward, very lightly, put both of his hands against her huge, round stomach.The f He swallowed. It the baby likes the sound of your voice.There was one short beat of total silence. I could not move a muscle, even to blink. Then Holy crow, you can hear himBella shouted. In the next second, she winced.Edwards hand moved to the top peak of her belly and gently rubbed the spot where it must have kicked her.Shh, he murmured. You floor it him.Her eyes got all wide and full of wonder. She patted the side of her stomach. Sorry, baby.Edward was listening hard, his head canted toward the bulge.Whats he thinking now? she demanded eagerly.It he or she, is He paused and looked up into her eyes. His eyes were filled with a similar idolatry only his were more careful and grudging. Hes happy Edward said in an incredulous voice.Her breath caught, and it was impossible not to see the fanatic gleam in her eyes. The adoration and the devotion. Big, fat tears overflowed her eyes and ran silently down her face and over her smiling lips.As he stared at her, his face was not frightened or angry or burning or any of the other expressions hed worn since their return. He was marveling with her.Of course youre happy, pretty baby, of course you are, she crooned, rubbing her stomach while the tears washed her cheeks. How could you not be, all safe and warm and loved? I love you so much, little EJ, of course youre happy.What did you call him? Edward asked curiously.She blushed again. I sort of named him. I didnt think you would want well, you know.EJ?Your fathers name was Edward, too.Yes, it was. What ? He paused and then said, Hmm.What?He likes my voice, too.Of course he does. Her tone was almost triumph now. You have the most beautiful voice in the universe. Who wouldnt love it?Do you have a backup plan? Rosalie asked then, leaning over the back of the sofa with the same wonder ing, gloating look on her face that was on Bellas. What if hes a she?Bella wiped the back of her hand under her wet eyes. I kicked a few things around. Playing with Renee andEsme. I was thinking Ruh-nez-may.Ruhnezmay?R-e-n-e-s-m-e-e. Too weird?No, I like it, Rosalie conscious her. Their heads were close together, gold and mahogany. Its beautiful. And one of a kind, so that fitsI still think hes an Edward.Edward was staring off into space, his face blank as he listened.What? Bella asked, her face just glowing away. Whats he thinking now?At first he didnt answer, and then shocking all the rest of us again, three distinct and separategasps he laid his ear tenderly against her belly.He loves you, Edward whispered, sounding dazed. He absolutely adores you.In that moment, I knew that I was alone. every(prenominal) alone.I wanted to kick myself when I realized how much Id been counting on that disgustful vampire. How stupid as if you could ever trust a leech Of course he would betray me in the end.Id counted on him to be on my side. Id counted on him to suffer more than I suffered. And, most of all, Id counted on him to hate that revolting thing killing Bella more than I hated it.Id trusted him with that. hitherto now they were together, the two of them bent over the budding, invisible monster with their eyes lit up like a happy family.And I was all alone with my detestation and the pain that was so bad it was like being tortured. Like being dragged slowly across a bed of razor blades. Pain so bad youd take death with a smile just to get away from it.The heat open my frozen muscles, and I was on my feet.All three of their heads snapped up, and I watched my pain let the cat out of the bag across Edwards face as he trespassed in my head again.Ahh, he choked.I didnt know what I was doing I stood there, trembling, ready to bolt for the very first escape that I could think of.Moving like the strike of a snake, Edward darted to a small end table and ripped somethin g from the drawer there. He tossed it at me, and I caught the object reflexively.Go, Jacob. Get away from here. He didnt say it raspingly he threw the words at me like they were a life preserver. He was part me find the escape I was dying for.The object in my hand was a set of car keys.